Hi.

My name is Alenka. I am a native of Slovenia, living in Lake Tahoe California and La Ventana Bay in Mexico with one husband, four grown children, three growing grandchildren, and one magnificent golden retriever Monty.

I write here, there and everywhere in— between about anything that inspires me, makes me mad or sad or preferably, about what makes my heart sing with joy.

It's just a walk.

It's just a walk.

Alenka Vrecek

 

October 11/2016

I just came back from a walk with the dogs. Our regular loop in the neighborhood takes about ten minutes. Today it took me over an hour. Pure physical exhaustion and tears streaming down my checks. By the time I came back home, I could barely stand. I actually had to sit down on the side of the road a few times to rest. Luckily I didn’t run into anyone. They would probably call an ambulance if they saw a pale limping bald creature.

On the bright side of things, Monty and Bodie stayed with me the whole time. Especially Bodie, my faithful old Golden Retriever stayed right next to me, nudging me along. Dogs, and animals in general, possess pure intuition that us humans, on many levels, either lost or are unable to tap into and are afraid to trust. We overthink, overanalyze, and complicate our lives. Animals just feel and react accordingly.

Today is also a beautiful fall day. Fresh crisp air, blue sky and as always, the lake is a spectacular deep blue, almost a purple hue. I look forward to feeling better soon, so I can go out and ride my bike, run, ski and everything else I loved doing before this.

Now I have to drive back to Truckee to PT for a lymphedema I developed after lumpectomy and an ultrasound. The last MRI of my pelvic area revealed cysts  around the ovaries and uterus. I hope they are benign. I am sure they are. No one has more then one type of cancer right!?

I want to scream.

I want to scream.
What to do and what not to do.

What to do and what not to do.